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THE WHY

   I have lived with depression and social anxiety, ever since I can remember. I am 63 years young.

I struggled all of my live with "who am I?" and without knowing I turned my life to fate.  Whatever came my way through fate, I did well, but to do well addiction masked my depression.  Without really knowing my being, I allowed all the hurt during my life to identify my being.  The hurts built so much that back in April of 2012, through emptiness, loneliness, darkness and despair, I had a close attempt of suicide.

I lived alone with my feelings (Who am I?  I feel like I am just taking up space. I just don't belong.  I am different and wishing I could be like others).  It was a lot of turmoil and conflict within.

What stopped me from looking for help?  I did not know where to go and I did not know the resources to go through.  To be honest it was also stigma.  Is my mental health that bad to have to seek help?  I am not like the worse case scenarios that are portrayed in the media and tv and I am not like those people. I don't lie or steal and I am never aggressive and basically I am a good human being, therefore I don't need help.

I received help and finally found the resources available and even though I am still on a healing journey, I have learned so much about my being.

You can find more info on the "MY JOURNEY OF HEALING" page.

I have lived and survived mental illness and I don't think anyone should have to suffer due to not knowing resources that are available and due to stigma, either within or by others.  I have also experienced stigma not only within but by siblings and their families. 

 In the end it is your being and it is only you that can take control of your mental health, BUT, you can ask for help to achieve a better you.

Because of my appreciation of the help I have received, I embarked on a "Run for Mental Health" which only involved Ontario from April 29/2013 to May 24/2013 running/walking 525 miles/855 kilometers. The event was to raise money for the different branches of Cmha's and to raise mental health awareness and eliminate stigma.

It was successful in my physical and mental ability to do so, but was unsuccessful to my expectations.  Out of the 14 jurisdictions of CMHA branches, only 8 showed support and when it came to the day, where there were expectations, 3 of the CMHA's did not show up.

During my run I was inspired by the CMHA's whom did support me, to want to do more. 

Doing a relay with people whom have experienced addictions and mental illness,  I believe will impact the public  and media more so, than one person trying to do so.

I believe things happen for a reason. I had to live it, I had to endure it, all 60 years. I believe we are put on this earth for a reason and I never knew why and I believe this may be my calling.

AND THAT IS THE WHY

LET'S WORK TOGETHER IN A UNITED GOAL TOWARDS MENTAL HEALTH AWARENESS AND TO STOP THE STIGMA